I Have Tag

So this is my first tag...
And I actually love pondering/penning about these things
Thanks Divyan :)

I am thinking about...
ME: Why dont I show my name in here?
ME: Am I real?
ME: Where will I be in a year's time?
ME: Why do I Think so much?
ME: How do we know for Sure?
ME: My "5 year plan".

I said...
That life is unpredictable and its cool to say that thats the spice/beauty/magic of it
But I can't pretend anymore, I am scared. I am a scaredy cat. Chicken.

I want to...
Just stop the world.
Soak in all the things that has happened/been happening since 6 months.

I wish...
I knew if he is "the one"
I lived in Hawaii
I was in Jack Johnson's concert, near the beach...sunset...with my baldy :)
I can dance like Shakira
ps: A friend of ours tried to show us the Real Reggaeton Moves, we ended up moving...but with laughter. So you can imagine :)

I hear...
"In times like these, In times like those
What will be will be...And so it goes
And it always goes on and on...
And there has always been laughing, crying, birth, and dying
Boys and girls with hearts that take and give and break
And heal and grow and recreate and raise and nurture
But then hurt from time to time like these..."

I wonder...
If I am making the right decision(s).

I regret...
Treating my mom only as a supermom and not as a woman with her own needs and desires
For not doing well in my Bachelor's degree some years ago :)

I am...
A person who knows her weakness. I am indecisive, fickle and short sighted
But I am still OK because I always come back to my mistakes and do something about it
I am also a loving and caring friend
In a relationship after 5 years
Still coming to terms like "boyfriend", "significant other" ayaya!

I dance...
to hip- hop. I love to dance.
I dance with my friends when we go pubbin or whenever there is an occassion.
Sometimes I also dance when I am in the shower :)

I sing...
When I hear familiar songs around me.
I have this really irritating habit of singin a tune/one liner over and over again.

I cry...
when I am sad or extremely grateful.
I cried last night thanking God for answering my prayers :)
I love my brother.

I am not always...
positive even though my mantra is..
Everything happens for a reason, a good reason.

I make with my hands...
Breakfast every morning.
Lunch and dinner sometimes...I am pretty surprised that I love cooking...though the road to being a good cook seems pretty far!
Its amazing when you have to cook an entire meal by yourself...multi tasking!

I write...
here and in my journal.
I used to write in my other blogs.

I need...
Love.
Its the only reason I live for.

Encore? and Jack

And I think who is my audience?

Besides two people who knows this page's existence and its author(;P) ...no one knows. I dont have time to read "unnecessary" (I fall under that!) blogs (neither do ppl I guess), unless its people- I- know- blogs or really interesting blogs- life experience like readingwhilefalling

But then I still type and type...and I will type because its my space and its kinda nice to come back here and read wat u thought or felt cos as hard as you think you are in control, you seriously lose track of yourself at times :) Boy oh boy it is so true...humbling to know that u aint the only "hero"...well I am one of em though.

I just saw Jack Johnson's videos Again...check it out if ur a "fan" ...its fantastic!!! (swoons)jackjohnsonmusic
Taylor with Ben Stiller still cracks me up...its a video with comedy, melody and soul :) where do u find tht???

(I got melody and soul...guess I ll have to do with half a cuppa comedy :P )

Its been two years with his music almost everyday and he still strikes a chord to my senses everytime he strums!! Well sometimes I deny to my friends' accusation that I am a crazy "fan". I mean who wants to sound like an irrational crazy teenager gushing over an artiste when you are 24!!! (yeah thats my age)
I guess I am one :)

He is simply amazing and I love his lyrics...for me its makes more sense than the existential angst of Kafka or Stoppard...Am I comparing? nah but then who draws the yardsticks anyway...well I guess am amongst the "intellectually lesser" of the mortals...


I think about life and in some level I see it just as
Jack croons...
"Well I am just people watchin, the other people watchin me
We are just people watchin, the other people watchin we...
We are as lonely as we wanted to be...

I am just you, you are just me
Its only true, if we believe"

I do not think that we can ever be happy alone witout sharing or caring about other people. We need to relate to people and try UNDERSTANDING them. Its easier said than done but there is just so much energy when we do that. Its amazing when we open up...you find meaning and a point of reference from that experience.
We might fail but hey we did try didnt we?

I have 109 dreams...never did care about money but darn its slowly playin a vital role! Reality is like this really coarse taste of charcoal (yeah i ve tasted it :) )
Most of the time I feel like I live near the brink of reality. Its a bubble goin to burst anytime...but I always try to blow more of it. I guess that is life for me...otherwise I'd never be happy.

I remember a friend of mine and me discussing about People and how there is meaning in every relationship that we pursue if we give it chance. I have hoards of friends and I always thought this is it, my book of friends is complete. But its not so.
I open and I find so much insight...Love

For me..
"...Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? and where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?It's not always easy and
Sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing its always better when we're together..." (jj- better together)

Its always better together with People.

Me

So here is one of my many beginnings in the virtual world...
It is a space where I willingly let strangers delve inside moi...this thought is actually unnerving but heck I have been doing this for sometime.
Life as I know has been quite a ride. From bunking school to the very first taste of beer. From the shady smokes to the other very stale tastes.... From losing mom to finding Christ. From knowing Blake as the "lover of Nature" to Blake who saw Christ as a Revolutionary. From bad grades to good grades....and finally realising that nothing is for sure except that there will be life after every tear, happiness, and death. I can't believe that I am going lose my breath one day and be gone some place else, which I still cannot comprehend as much as I want to.
But what I do know for sure is that I believe in His love and in my friends. I am not perfect but I try to be better each day.